On February 25th, I had a mild stroke caused by a blockage in the left carotid artery. I experienced memory loss and had difficulty finding words when speaking. I felt confused and didn’t understand what was happening. 

That day, I slept most of the time and was unable to function.

The next day, I woke up feeling that something was seriously wrong. My first thought was, of all things, that I had a stroke. I’m not sure why, but it was the first thing that came to mind. 

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Instead of rushing to the doctor, I hesitated and tried to act like a brave warrior.

I scheduled a visit to urgent care for Friday the 28th, but I now believe that hesitation may have caused more harm. 

I went on Friday morning. I wasn’t there 30 minutes before they asked my wife and me if we wanted them to call an ambulance for me. Once again, I refused the help and told them that I could drive myself.

Four hours later, I was in the emergency room receiving an official diagnosis of carotid artery blockage and a stroke. 

On March 5th, I finally received the stent and was discharged two days afterward.

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It’s been four weeks since my stroke, and certain realities have become clear.

My memory has been affected, and my speech has been impaired. I’ve applied for speech therapy.

The right side of my body has become weaker. I am currently undergoing physical therapy.

My sleep patterns have been completely disrupted, but taking doses of Melatonin has helped smooth things out a bit. I still have some progress to make.

My family, friends, and medical support have all contributed to my will to fight and survive.

The person I once was, physically and mentally, has changed significantly. 

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I know that even with a full recovery expected, I’ve been changed. ‘A wake-up call’ is too mild a description. 

The road ahead will be difficult, but I have no choice. I am not someone who gives up or fails to fight back. I have words to read and write. I have lessons to learn and teach. 

Time won’t wait for me to move forward. I will move forward.

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