I’ve been told that inspiration for writing is everywhere.
Just open your eyes.
The person or object in front of you, even when it’s a computer screen or The view of the backyard through your office window.
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Look up at the sky, like when you were a kid and you stared out your bedroom window and conjured images
from the cumulus clouds above the Patterson Projects in the South Bronx.
It doesn’t matter where it comes from
As long as you write something.
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Oh, they’re very insistent.
The inspiration is there and everywhere.
I must open my eyes, ears, and mind to the possibilities.
For a long time, I couldn’t write a thing.
Well, that's not accurate.
I could write a love letter, a script for a radio show, a television news report, a technical or policy paper, or maybe sneak in a poem or two.
Those were either the duties of a job or a frivolous moment to fill while I waited for something more serious to come along.
Marking time.
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That’s how I sometimes thought of creative writing.
You know, the writing where you open your heart and soul and scream words onto a page until they click into moving pictures.
Or, to put it another way, the words walk into living worlds and settle in to rest for as long as they want.
A million other writers and I have said it before, writing,
authentic writing
That spills out honestly when you find the courage to free yourself, And your soul will follow
is difficult.
Almost impossible if you’re not honest with yourself.
Writing on demand can seem easy when you’re just pecking away at the keyboard in the hopes that something comes out,
And all that seems to appear on the screen in front of you is gibberish your eyes can’t translate.
But you exercised your fingers and proved that you could type.
Yeah, that’s one way to look at it.
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When I was a television reporter, I had to crank out two to three scripts in the span of a couple of hours
(without the aid of a computer or Grammarly),
You had notes,
And maybe you had a chance to watch the news film (probably not) or the video (doubtful).
You had to tap your memory banks, write a story based on fact, and make sure it made sense,
and ensure that it weaves with the visual element into a one-and-a-half-minute report
That was succinct and clear enough
that someone at home would take the time to watch it.
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Not sure I would call it “creative writing,”
But you did hope it moved someone’s feelings or mind an inch.
This is before the internet,
When people would sit in front of a television at an appointed hour
Or at least had it playing in the background over dinner and watched and listened to
crime stories or scandals or some stimulating
“If it bleeds, it leads” news report that had spun out of your electric typewriter only an hour earlier.
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My goal was to tell the truth in the best way I knew how,
and my inspiration was the reality I had witnessed,
or at least gotten other witnesses to tell their stories.
The Creative Writing I did in college was different and more challenging.
Some people try any number of processes, exercises, and techniques to get their creative juices flowing.
I start my writing simply enough.
A title. A thought. An incident from my past. A word.
A single word.
What matters is that I start typing.
Type. Type. Type.
Take a breath and then start typing again
and be confident enough to ensure that a stream of sentences flows across the screen and that it makes some sense.
Okay, maybe not at first.
It’s my first write.
Perhaps it will be gibberish at first.
It’s a beginning.
Then, I go over it, the writing.
Sometimes, I’ll study it on the screen, making immediate changes as I go.
Or maybe after the fourth or fifth versions
(I’ve done upwards of twenty versions during the course of writing a piece),
I’ll print it out and read it aloud, listening to the cadence of the words,
the connection of those words, the specific words themselves,
hoping that I’m not repeating the exact words,
nouns, prepositions, adverbs, complex sentences
that run into each other because I sometimes forget there are such things as
periods, commas, or semicolons.
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Grammar is not my strong suit sometimes.
Always thinking about a better way to say something
(WordHippo is my thesaurus friend).
To visualize it first and then splash it across the page
so that whoever reads it
stops for a moment to absorb it, to bring it into themselves and allow it to fill their head and soul with the music of the words and the beauty of the picture
that is flashing before their imaginations.
That’s when you know.
Yeah, it’s all good.
I don’t want to stop there.
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I want to be continuously inspired to make the words sing louder, and to make the picture brighter,
The colors are forcing you to look at them
while at the same time
they burn into your very essence, and your heart dances gleefully and even more heartily than the first time you read or heard my words.
There’s so much more to learn.
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To exercise my fingers across this page, to tap that thing inside all of us
My life has been a rollercoaster of experiences, from The Bronx to Washington, D.C., to Hartford, Connecticut, and Los Angeles, California—first as a seminarian studying to become a priest, then as a local and national community organizer, a radio host and producer, a journalist and producer in both radio and television, a government bureaucrat, a youth mentor, and a small business consultant. Besides those roles, I’ve also tried my hand at being a jewelry vendor, a motorcycle courier, an airport shuttle driver, and a bartender in a German alpine-themed bar.
I am currently working on several writing projects, including a hybrid creative memoir about my time in Washington, D.C. This project serves as a personal and psychological exploration of addiction and trauma, offering an honest look at how someone can fall into a bottomless pit of despair, losing all judgment and moral clarity. Told through flashbacks, the memoir explores a complex theme: the physical and emotional experiences that shaped my struggles with addiction, ending with the scandal that would forever haunt me.
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